I woke up from a dubious dream this morning. We had just gotten in the car. I had made a joke that struck cord causing a momentary slip of the tongue of (a person left nameless and unidentified here) where he inadvertently confessed an indiscretion by correcting me on a term I used to describe the "event". After corrected the conversation continued for a moment until I realized what had just happened I said "Wait, what did you say? You did what?" looking strait into his face. He had "that look" on his face, that busted-and-I'm-screwed look of terror that admitted the truth. I told him to "Get out of the car Now!" He was stumbling for words so I raised my voice "Now!" and he opened the door. as he exited the vehicle somehow I was already there. As he got out he slipped and fell to the ground. Leaning over him I turned his face towards me and asked him "Was she married!" he responded "She had kids..." I reiterated "Was she Married!" to which he said "divorced". As I turned away I woke up.
It has now become one of those dreams that in memory are as clear as actual events from yesterday. As it turns out the "event" confessed is really immaterial. It was more about the fact that I never felt like he ever owned up to anything. I just needed him to, for once accept responsibility for the outcome of his actions. Was this something that my subconscious needed to sort out? A closure I desperately needed to move on? I think so because this morning I have less anxiety about whether or not I am right as well as weather or not I am currently doing the right things in my life.
I read that the Stanford Research Institute suggests a person has between 90,000 and 150,000 thoughts per day. We all have all kinds of personal doubts and challenges in our lives (It's what makes us human) and we often obsess on one thought, one subject that effects everything from the smallest decision like; What size coffee should I buy and should I get a cookie? to What should I do with my life? Before I became a Throw Out FIFTY Things Charter Coach, I held on to EVERYTHING. Through Gail Blanke's process I was able to learn to let go of things and things already lost that I was still mentally holding on to. That's a BIG step to take! So now this revelation coming to me in a dream can be put to the good use of letting go of what does not SERVE ME! A life changing ability everyone should master.
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